So What’s Next? (I’m open to suggestions – really)

I won’t lie. I’m exactly not bored with writing/painting/trading but It does feel like “been there, done that” so I get to focus on very specific details of these disciplines that are of interest to me to keep these things interesting.

2018 was a transition year and I took hard, difficult decisions, all of which have paid off by November.

And that opens up possibilities without any struggle (it’s a first!) and I mean… I don’t have anything to fix in my life right now except from like, one electrical outlet so I’m really good.

Truth is, I don’t really know where to go from here. (and I’m saying this in a very positive way).

Anyways… my age (and new years’) is a time of reflection and here is the list of every significant thing I’ve done with my life. Ever since that scene in Fight Club when they smash the car and shit…I’ve decided to life fully and so far It feels like a pretty good life.

 

Did the scuba diving

Snowboaded a lot

Fait du quatre roues (Broke both my arms)

Rollerblading too

Hockey as well

Rifle shooting (and was insanely good at it – I mean, we reloaded our own bullets professionally.

I did cut a nail with a shot at 100 yards when I was 16. I’m still proud of that somehow.

Competed in a couple things (hated it)

A year of wing-chun was a steep (yet meaningful) learning experience.

Learned the drums

Then bass

Then sang (screamed)

Then guitar

Did graffiti (and failed, then moved on quickly)

Recorded in studio (3 times) punk, hardcore and trash metal

Been on stage a bunch of times (and loved it)

I wrote like 11 books now.

Got publishing deals. (It doesn’t change your life the way people expect it to…)

Did a couple interviews ( and nailed them)

I did go to my cousin’s 5 star wedding (in a country club) dressed as a krusty punk.

Learned a second language (and a bit of a third)

1 ba in English

2 solo art shows

1 group show in the old port

Sold quite a few paintings

Did artistic photography

Lots and lots and lots of sports

Jumped from a cliff into a waterfall.

Learned how to trade (and nailed it, like… hard)

Worked a couple factories

I did park the forklift in my foreman’s office once. (sticking it to the man!!!)

Was in a 10 year, committed relationship

Stuck to a job who shared my values when it was hard (and it’s paid off – It also involved picking human shit with my hands (gloves) for said work – Allo Quartier Latin)

Went from warehouse worker to senior buyer in that company.

Bought a home

Fixed it up enough

Technically, I guess I flipped it (not entirely intentionally)

Got two kids (and loving it!)

I think I’m a really good dad

Survived a Poli Sci class with Dan O’Meara (It’s not that easy)

Had an A in a class with Steven Appelbaum (It’s an achievement!!!)

Did the GMAT

Got admitted to JMSB’s MBA

Failed said MBA but still really proud I failed at something so hard.

Seen the inside of MELS studios

Got divorced (It’s an achievement!!! It really is)

Was straight edge for 16 years, then had a beer and did not dislike it

Sérigraphie

Been to concerts, mosh pits, really sketchy and obscure shows.

Bati mes propres meubles (plusieurs fois)

Wrote 100+ poems

Did light painting (and it was really emotionally satisfying)

Told a woman I was hers and meant it like a motherfucker (and hurt myself doing so, but I would have regretted not telling her, I don’t have that regret now)

In a vaguely related statement, (and not bragging) I had sex with 20 different women, (and none of it could really be defined as boring)… which I’ve been told is high yet feels respectful of personal choices. I still don’t know how to feel about this or where to go with that.

I never cheated on anyone (not even a kiss) and I am really proud of this!

I want to keep the sex stuff private but I will mention I did “reach” Trantric sex.

(sans transition)

Drove a stick shift (and loved it)

Seen NOLA

Seen New-York (hated it)

Took a train old school style (and loved it)

Been on literary panels

Photoshopped some shit and covers (got bored with it)

Won a (small) literary prize (against my former professor who was a complete asshole – That’s my favourite part of it)

Did three years of community theater

Sold a movie script

Was a student union organizer for years.

Trade union negociator once

Trade union VP (It’s not that fancy)

Ran food drives

Got arrested – By thirty cops (Allo sommet des Amériques)

Was pepper sprayed, shot tear gas at, clubbed unconscious by the cavalry (for real)

Been in protests

Been in riots

Gave money to Doctors Without Borders

Had coffee with Albert Jacquard

Organized an entire week of conferences on globalisation

Stood up on a table to give a speech to hundreds of students in a protest.

Dared to let go of some very toxic people in my life. (I takes a certain courage)

Vegetarian (almost 20 years and counting)

Do the yoga

Got admitted into Mensa

Been in a real fight

Owned many (many) mistakes

Fell alsleep on the Mezzanine at the Orpheum Theatre in NOLA, wake up in front of Harlan Coben, said hi to each other and went right back to sleep.

Legitimately almost died 3 times

Got lots of tattoos

Got really sick (also got a lot better)

Told my dad I loved him

Learned how to cry like a man.

Drove a friend to his dying father

Helped many old ladies cross the street

Jumped on a plane on 300 bucks with no fucking money to spare (or backup plan) in another country to make it to a literary conference.

Gained 40 pounds

Lost the 40 pounds.

Climbed a 5.10D (and counting)

 

Thing’s I’m actively doing :

Going zero waste as much as possible.

 

Things I haven’t done :

 

Wish I had served in the military. I’m too old for it now and joining would only be self-serving. But it took me years to understand (too late) the value of it. (Kudos to those who served…) Oh well…

Joining an acting class (or a standup group) still feels like a goal I have yet to bring myself to reach. (I don’t know!!!)

All the travel-related stuff is still something I struggle with ethically (rich-white-priviledge kinda thing…welcome to my world!)

HUECO (it’s a climbing spot) this summer would be a trip I’d dare to allow myself

Surfing feels like something I need to learn.

 

Long term life goals:

I still need to build a house from scratch.

 

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